Sunday, June 18, 2006

3 weeks, 21 days, 504 hours 30240 seconds...I reckon.

I pondered today on why I have not made a blog entry in three weeks. Considering to myself, what has changed? Was it 11 years of marriage kicking me in the ass? Possibly…or maybe it’s my inconsistency in with participation in extra circular hobbies and activities. Blogging is a single outlet, from a myriad of mediums, for my creativity, my vision, my thoughts…ultimately a part of me. However, I will bounce erratically from one form to another.

Lunchables = Urban MRE’s (The Meal, Ready-to-Eat)

Currently I am fairly obsessed with Airsoft. I have no interest in what kind of gun you have or what accessories you have. Just give me a gun that feels good in my hands and comfortable to carry. Show me once where the safety is and how to reload. I’ll be just fine. What a fucking rush! Hell, I’ll even low crawl across the dirt and through the bush and timber. The second time I went out, we went to this old abandoned house for close quarter combat scenarios. We captured some of the scenarios on video, 3 interior breaches and 1 exterior breach. The data images are very sweet memento indeed. The house was torn down the next morning. All of us now yearning for an abandoned home we can use for game play. I could talk on and on, describing what, where, when and who, for paragraphs.


I will note, though not briefly, that at its deepest intellectual level it can represent a raw interactive community environment. We are animals through biology, so heed what you opine within the community’s alpha males and females. Which tier of power do you cling within the community and are you a male or female? The diversity of descriptions available to describe the company we interface with is awe-inspiring. That’s why they are, frankly…good company. I will elucidate my warning so beware; this will blog will consistently change and evolve, morphing from one entity to another. I can only commentate on what I confab, estimate and evaluate. Sometimes I feel like I over came ADD just to replace it with OCD.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

I'll huff and I'll puff and I'll blow your house down!











Good fun and good memories.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

11 years ago today......



I was married in Sacramento, CA. An evening wedding with an Italian flair, simple string quartet, dupioni silk dress, horse and carriage, dinner for 45 friends and family all on Memorial weekend. Today was our 4007th day of marriage. (Not sure if the number is exact, wouldn't matter if I was off a day or two, it just feels real strong) Most women would probably cringe at how I spent my anniversary today. I kissed my husband as he drove off to play Airsoft (army man...Oh think what ever you want to think), talked with my mom on the phone, played some games with our four year old on the computer. I talked on the phone again, this time with my husband’s best friend. Then I did some laundry and cleaned the kitchen. Once cleaned, I decided to make some homemade, french fried, potato chips and hot dogs for lunch. Around then my son, who is ten, came home from spending the night at his friend’s house, with same said friend in tow. My phone then rings and my neighbor’s daughter wants to come over and play. Now I have four children in my house. Food is served and the french fried potatoes are consumed with speed along with hot dogs and mass amounts of catsup. Husband's best friend calls back, since working close to our home, he askes to stop by. My husband and his friend arrive at same time...now there are four kids and three adults in my house(it's about 1k sq feet, total) and it's about 5:30 pm. The old man passes out asleep in the living room, my son's friend's mother stops by and picks up her son and my son retreats back to his room and my daughter is back on the computer again with her friend. So my friend and I watched The Maxx out in the garage while having a beer and smoke. He was talking about his current rap sheet in dating and inquiring on my thoughts about his current situation. He eventually departs about 7:30pm heading for home. Told him if we could find a baby-sitter, we would call him and go get some sushi. But too no avail, it is now 11:02 PST and my man is still asleep. Both kids are retired to their rooms. I'm sure the four year old is asleep since she hasn't come out to ask for something to eat or drink, but maybe not. It sure is quiet. This was a good day...a lot was accomplished and there were good times. I'm lucky enough to have a relationship with my husband that I can support him and he supports me, all through out the year. So why require him to make one day any more important than the rest of the days of each and every year. Happy 11th anniversary!

Make a wish and blow.....

Resigned to wind
Entangled into the soil
Life brings forth more life

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Direction

Forwards
Backward
Up
Down
Sideways
Wait! Stop!
Imagine color
Consider shape
Select form
Go!

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Pink toes and cigarettes


Painted my toes Pink
Hide out inside Reno bar
Lyric some old school




Friendly game of pool
A bottle of Budweiser
My pack of Camels




Sweet sleeve and new ink
Blue knit sweater on my stool
One DMENTD day


Thursday, May 04, 2006

Vaporized















There is no controlling it
It’s forever moving

Impossible to concede it
It’s eternally accepting

Unable to define it
It’s continuously changing

Powerless to persuade it
It’s always undeviating

With no way to ignore it
It’s always here
It’s always now

Time

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Static



Are you hearing me?
Do you comprehend my response?
Should I clarify anything?
Is there confusion?
Are you compounding your thoughts?
What is your conclusion?
How will you reply?
Do we understand each other?
Are we communicating effectively?